The Transitory Nature of Identity
it’s natural for one’s identity to shift, to reimagine itself through the years, especially as one begins to understand themselves more as they age.
we talk a lot in the community about “what if the id is temporary–!” and there’s a lot of folk who are scared that things *are* transitory, when it shouldnt be a scary thing!
it feels a little like baring my soul, but i want to share my identity progression with y'all as an example that even those who seem to have figured their shit out, only look that way because they’ve had time to get a grasp on who they are!
before i was daski, i was Sewreel. a wolf/dragon hybrid shapeshifting goddess of destruction. for reasons that are way too long for this already long post, we Split–she was her and i was me, and yet we were the same person, an alter ego if you will. and yet, you can see where while i’ve always been a dragon, a canid, a shapeshifter, and a goddess in some faculty, the form it took was very different!
this is the very first iteration of me as daski, i’m the orange canid.
due to a change in how my phantom limbs felt, i changed what “i” looked like, sort of rapid style.
..tbh i dont remember why i started using the kyuubi form, other than i liked it? lol
in amongst the stumbling through forms i enjoyed being portrayed as, i found the one that y'all might be most familiar with: the destructor dragon, the serpentine goddess that led me to finding the alterhuman community.
who, even then, went through some “form finding” to figure out what felt like me!
but i didnt stop there. the signature on most of these you see is based off of my incorporating the odd instincts of wanting to be fluffy with being a noodle
during all this time, i was still messing around with other forms as well, ones i didnt realize until later that were incredibly important to my identity.
i still cant believe how close to an indoraptor i got with this one. it’s incredible.
i tested out my affiliation with water as a dragon, as well
the ultimate culmination and understanding of where i’ve come from, and what i’ve found i’ve liked through the years. you can physically see how each transformation has lent itself into the next iteration.
each and every step of the way has been important, and while i may not currently identify with the steps i took to get here, they were all intrinsic and important stepping stones to understand how and why im me. i thank each form for the comfort and understanding that it gave to me, and i would be less of myself today had i not had each and every one of these forms as a part of my journey!